man, i love the body of Christ...

*sigh* being in the LORD is utter bliss--even when I'm alone.

give me the heart of the undignified of David, the steadfastness of Job, the perseverance of Paul, the passion of Peter, and the trust of Abraham.

see it is possible to run this race... many have succeeded...

                    it all begins with utter B R O K E N E S S

I ask myself, "WTF are you doing, Justin?"

[ good point ]

The past few weekends have been mad fun--from Thursday to Saturday--it just never ends.

But when I look around,
and see all the pain I'm causing--
to my good friends,
people that love me
my very best friend,
my partners,
myself.
worst of all
--HIM.
I realize,
IT'S REALLY NOT WORTH IT

I am really sorry to all those who had to put up with me.  I'm done with this.  Not saying that'll I'll stop, cause I may not--I'm human.  But now, I'm fighting it.  Thanks for ALL your prayers.

...now, to get back on my knees...

                                 man, it's so easy to let your guard down.

don't get caught up in the b U s i N e S s of life,

                                                        it'll devour you.

set your eyes on the prize.

IT'S STRANGE ISN'T IT?

Isn't it strange how a 20 dollar bill seems like such a large amount when you donate it to church, but such a small amount when you go shopping?

Isn't it strange how 2 hours seem so long when you're at church, and how short they seem when you're watching a good movie?

Isn't it strange that you can't find a word to say when you're praying, but you have no trouble thinking what to talk about with a friend?

Isn't it strange how difficult and boring it is to read one chapter of the Bible, but how easy it is to read 100 pages of a popular novel?

Isn't it strange how everyone wants front-row-tickets to concerts or games, but they do whatever is possible to sit in the last row in Church?

Isn't it strange how we need to know about an event for Church 2-3 weeks before the day so we can include it in our agenda, but we can adjust it for other events in the last minute?

Isn't it strange how difficult it is to learn a fact about God to share it with others, but how easy it is to learn, understand, extend and repeat gossip?

Isn't it strange how we believe everything that magazines and newspapers say, but we question the words in the Bible?

Isn't it strange how everyone wants a place in heaven, but they don't want to believe, do, or say anything to get there?

Isn't it strange how we send jokes in e-mails and they are forwarded right away, but when we are going to send messages about God, we think about it twice before we share it with others?

IT'S STRANGE ISN'T IT?

When God takes something from your grasps, he's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better.

His CROSS was His glory: through the suffering, comes

g r a c e and

salvation.

does He want me?

wow, did I really ask that?

He died for me.  All questions answered.

does this world want me?

WHO CARES?

He is more than enough

--now I just need to accept that.

slowly getting back on track.

live as though Christ died yesterday, rose from the grave today, and is coming back tomorrow.

I asked God why I wasn't rich.

He showed me a man with the wealth of a thousand kings—

who was lonely, and had no one to share it with.

I asked God why I wasn't beautiful.

He showed me a woman more beautiful than any other—
who was ugly because of her vanity.

I asked God why He'd allowed me to become old.

He showed me a boy of 16—

who lay dead at the scene of a car accident.

I asked God why I didn't have a bigger house.

He showed me a family of six—

who had just been evicted from their tiny apartment on 51^st street,

and were forced to live on the street.

I asked God why I had to work.

He showed me a man—

who couldn't find a decent job

because he'd never learned to read.

I asked God why I wasn't more popular.

He showed me a socialite with a thousand friends—

who all left the second the money and parties were no longer there.

I asked God why I wasn't smarter.

He showed me a natural born genius—

serving life in prison for making ill use of his knowledge.

I asked God why He put up with a thankless sinner like me.

He showed me His Son—
who took my place at the judgment.